What an odd coincidence. [ and not intentional at all. totally a coincidental whim. totally.
she's smirking as she continues: ] Someone who understands leadership, has had some kind of authoritative position. Someone who protects and inspires others.
Yours remains one of the biggest I've seen. [ she just loves that she gets to say that in this context.
she knows it, already; his confession makes her melt a little bit, anyway. ] I miss being able to boss you around, having you feel compelled to do whatever I told you to. I probably could've made even better use out of it.
[ they only got to scratch the surface of kinks she'd like to try, to be honest. ]
It doesn't have to be over, even if both of us get contracted. [ the simple fact that she can't get contracted to him, is the only thing that makes her a bit forlorn about this entire situation. ] Whomever it is will just have to deal with it.
And on those times you don't feel like doing what you're told, I can give in to you.
You're the only one I trust enough to see myself giving that kind of control over to, willingly.
I agree. [ He says that like they're having a meeting on battle strategies and not the fact that they apparently can't stop being intimate with each other now they've started, even once they're contracted to other people. ]
Clarke... you know you have to start trusting people other than me and our friends, right?
But I appreciate the sentiment. Really, I do. [ It means a lot to him to hear her say that. It comforts him in a way he didn't know he needed from her. ]
[ admittedly, not as hard as she could. this sort of thing doesn't come easily to her, to any of them generally, but to make allies and connections that might benefit them in the long run, trust is definitely needed.
it's just hard to think about trusting someone else fully, when bellamy is within easy reach. ] It's a slow process. [ there's scott, for one, who seems trustworthy despite being something she's only read about in the horror story section of the ark's library. ]
You haven't offered what you're looking for, in a dominant, by the way.
[ she smiles through that, but it dissipates when she reminds herself of the obvious — that it can't happen. ]
I'm being serious, though. I know you asked me the same question, but you have to consider your options — like who's going to benefit you the most, by being contracted to them.
[ she knows he is; she knows now that he's more than capable of it, that he can put his heart aside for the moment when he needs to.
she's grinning, though, because she can't help but tease him a bit, despite how seriously she wants him to take this decision. ] You say that, but then you start talking about the imprint of my ass. It made quite the impression on you, didn't it.
Just promise me you'll choose someone who's going to treat you well, too.
You made an impression on me a long time ago, Clarke. [ It's only now he gets to appreciate the finer things in life, like her ass. ]
You think I'd choose someone who treats me like dirt?
[ Treated like dirt, but be partnered with someone who could potentially help him in a lot of ways?
Treated like dirt, but maybe that's what he thinks he deserves?
...Okay, so maybe he could make a wrong decision when it comes to this. And maybe it's good that Clarke has reminded him what choice he needs to make, for himself, not just others. ]
[ that's just the thing - she doesn't think he'd choose someone deliberately who mistreats him, but she also knows how little bellamy tends to think of his own needs, wants and safety.
he deserves to have someone who's going to look out for him, the way she'd be doing in that role, if she could. but instead of pressing the issue - and it's not necessary to, he says he'll try, and she believes him for the most part - she follows the thread of his first statement. ]
[ that was the first time she'd seen him for who he was, as well — someone who didn't relish killing, someone who didn't even want to have that on his conscience, when it would relieve suffering — and she'd clung to that belief when raven had landed and they realized the damaged radio had doomed three hundred aboard the ark. ]
I remember how you told the camp to get me whatever I needed to take care of Jasper, after.
That was when I started to like you, even if I didn't let on about it for a while.
Honestly? I didn't think you liked me even a little bit until you hugged me for the first time. And even then I thought maybe you'd mistaken me for someone else.
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she's smirking as she continues: ] Someone who understands leadership, has had some kind of authoritative position. Someone who protects and inspires others.
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Someone with a younger sister, someone who has facial hair, someone whose name rhymes with 'felony'...
[ He's flattered and smug and sad at the same time. ]
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[ if he could see her on video, he'd see right through that. ]
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[ Among other things...
Also, he can't believe he's about to say this but... ]
I miss being your Bodem.
But you probably knew that already.
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she knows it, already; his confession makes her melt a little bit, anyway. ] I miss being able to boss you around, having you feel compelled to do whatever I told you to. I probably could've made even better use out of it.
[ they only got to scratch the surface of kinks she'd like to try, to be honest. ]
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You know you can still boss me around. And I can do what I'm told. Sometimes.
Besides, we're shower pact partners, so what we've been doing...
It's not over. Unless you want it to be.
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And on those times you don't feel like doing what you're told, I can give in to you.
You're the only one I trust enough to see myself giving that kind of control over to, willingly.
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Clarke... you know you have to start trusting people other than me and our friends, right?
But I appreciate the sentiment. Really, I do. [ It means a lot to him to hear her say that. It comforts him in a way he didn't know he needed from her. ]
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[ admittedly, not as hard as she could. this sort of thing doesn't come easily to her, to any of them generally, but to make allies and connections that might benefit them in the long run, trust is definitely needed.
it's just hard to think about trusting someone else fully, when bellamy is within easy reach. ] It's a slow process. [ there's scott, for one, who seems trustworthy despite being something she's only read about in the horror story section of the ark's library. ]
You haven't offered what you're looking for, in a dominant, by the way.
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Someone who keeps me centered. Someone who keeps me on my toes. Someone who tells me I'm special...
Someone who has a perfect ass imprint.
[ Someone who answers to the name Clarke Griffin, basically. ]
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I'm being serious, though. I know you asked me the same question, but you have to consider your options — like who's going to benefit you the most, by being contracted to them.
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Trust me, I'm looking at this strategically.
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she's grinning, though, because she can't help but tease him a bit, despite how seriously she wants him to take this decision. ] You say that, but then you start talking about the imprint of my ass. It made quite the impression on you, didn't it.
Just promise me you'll choose someone who's going to treat you well, too.
[ ...since she can't. ]
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You think I'd choose someone who treats me like dirt?
[ Treated like dirt, but be partnered with someone who could potentially help him in a lot of ways?
Treated like dirt, but maybe that's what he thinks he deserves?
...Okay, so maybe he could make a wrong decision when it comes to this. And maybe it's good that Clarke has reminded him what choice he needs to make, for himself, not just others. ]
I'll try.
You have to, too.
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he deserves to have someone who's going to look out for him, the way she'd be doing in that role, if she could. but instead of pressing the issue - and it's not necessary to, he says he'll try, and she believes him for the most part - she follows the thread of his first statement. ]
When did I leave an impression on you?
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That was probably the moment I realized you weren't a spoiled princess like I thought. You were strong. You ended his suffering and I respected that.
[ She gave that kid the best death he could have got out of a shitty situation, the same way she did with Finn. ]
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I remember how you told the camp to get me whatever I needed to take care of Jasper, after.
That was when I started to like you, even if I didn't let on about it for a while.
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Honestly? I didn't think you liked me even a little bit until you hugged me for the first time. And even then I thought maybe you'd mistaken me for someone else.
[ Okay, that last part was a joke. ]